Lately, I’ve been slowing returning to myself. The old me, the pre-kids self. Let’s rewind a little bit, how did I ‘lose’ myself? First, I’ll start by saying I don’t think I lost myself per se. Instead, other things took priority and slowly most of the things I enjoyed to do and kept for myself were just pretty much non-existent. Becoming a mom can really cause a huge shift in life, everything changes whether you want it to or not. Pregnancy changes everything: your hormones, body, appearance, idea of self … all of it. Then, once the baby came my focus completely shifted to what I thought was the ideal of the “perfect” mom. NEWSFLASH – there’s no such thing. I advanced my career and became a Women’s Health Nurse Practitioner too <- another stressor. Finally, add another baby to the mix and I found myself in a rut.
Fast forward, my littlest is 2 years old. Nursing is a thing of the past, I nursed for 18 months and then again for 22 months. But that’s a story for another day. She is more independent, the girls play together. This frees up some time I can take back for myself. When Ayesha Curry explained how she spent all this time having and nursing babies and now it’s time to nurse herself – I felt that in my soul. It’s time for a shift and there’s nothing wrong with it, it’s not selfish (although some people may think so) and it has nothing to do with anyone else.
Writing, while it’s never really been a career for me, is somewhat therapeutic. My first blog was started during an accelerated nursing program as a way to get my mind of exams, studying, clinical rotations, and everything else school. Returning to myself, I’ve decided to commit to writing again, I’m not sure exactly where Beauty Blvd. will go but I still do love all things beauty and hair care, but there’s other stuff too – so stick around and see what’s to come.